I feel accomplished and good. Working out is trully my morning coffee. 

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240 cal 1.13 miles 30 mins at 2.4 to 2.5 plus 20 mins of strength training with John. My arms are jello but I feel

Woo Hoo

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I lost another 4.4 pounds. I was bad and got weighed on Saturday at a WW meeting instead of waiting until today my usual weigh in day. On Saturday I weighed 372.2. But I am going to stick to my Monday morning weigh-ins. I bought a new scale on Sunday with YM. I had taken my old scale to work for the Walking Club but my lovely students broke it within a few days. I like this new one, its digital. I really need to work on not being obsessed with weighing in every day. It's a lot of fun and very supportive to have YM to work and talk out with. She has been an amazing rock. JB and SC have also been great supporters. I worked out with JB on Friday night. It was fun because I was telling her about my great adventures as a Chubby Go Lucky she was surprised all the BS I have to deal with. The topic came up because two stupid people said the typical FAT comments to me at 24 hour fitness. 1. The trainer showing us around the gym asked if I was Samoan or Hawiian. I'm sure a loads of Chubby Mexicans get this or anyone Fat and Brown. I said "nope, Mexican. My friend over there grew up in Hawaii", pointing to JB on the elliptical machine. 2. At the steam room, I got a mouth fulls of free advice from a man with a big pot belly himself. He blurted out every few minutes random bits "Only do swimming. Don't do elliptical..you don't want to have a heart attack. Have you talked to your doctor. Take it easy. You should be careful, people with high blood pressure should not be in here." I said, "I don't she does though" pointing to JB next to me.  I finally poked JB for us to take off. On our way home JB told me I should right about this stuff. I told her I have. Blogging has been another great support and outlet. So thanks blog. :) Until next time. 

"You are what you do....first do good, then feel good" <Elvia>

623 2.78 65mins 2 percent incline <Elvia>

Get Fit Elvia!

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Last night I spent it waking up every half hour worried that I slept in and did not make my 6:15am Bootcamp class. Alas it was 5:45am and I got my body up and rushed to the park where fit and chubbies got their asses kicked. I was worried if my body was able to handle what ever was tossed to me, but it was a good class. Everyone was supportive, including the gang at my WW meeting a half an hour later. 

I was really aiming for a high weight loss since I flatlined last week. I should be happy that I lost another 1.6 pounds off this body but it still irked me a bit....well a lot. I know that it will happen slowly but surely but I would have hoped with all the extra on top of extra activity would have shown on that damn flat square.

I'm meeting my sis tonight to work out as we have planned to do every night this week. I am also going to change up my diet by eating 6 smaller meals instead of 3 big ones. I have been sticking to my WW points (ok except for one day) but even than I only used half my extra 35 I get for the week. 

So I did some research last night at the bookstore and since I'm pre-diabetic anyway, I'm going to start eating like one. WW is great but I think I need something more detailed and specific to me. I really love livestrong.com it has a lot more tools to help you see your intake of food and your outtake of calories, by tracking all of my exercising. 

There are two other things that could have stunted my weight loss: 1. I waited too long between meals sometimes. 2. Some days I don't think I ate enough. With all the exercising and activities I have been doing I think my body held on to gordura instead of burning it. So here goes nothing. I'm not jumping ship. I was successful before and back than I did not have perfect weeks. I just need to continue to push through and see what works for me. 

Daily Affirmation: You kicked ass in class and did not complain. Keep up the good work. 

I think im a closeted runner. There was a point i started jogging and it felt so good. <Elvia>

538cal burned 2.64 miles 60mins on treadmill at 2.8 <Elvia>

Let it go...Let it Flow

I'll make it short and sweet. I feel good tonight like I usually do from a good workout. My goal for next week is to get my self into a routine that my body can adjust to. I think I need to have my workouts be in the morning since it acts as my coffee. Which I have not had in weeks. I also cut red meat. Not forever but I just prefer fish, turkey, and chicken. Veggies have been a great replacement as well. I made a delicious pasta with red pepper sauce and loaded veggies. Broccoli, Asparagus, Cabbage, Tomato, Zucchini.... it was so yummy and it kept me full. For dinner Enrique and I split a Subway Club. So far so good this week. I have not used my extra 35 points and I have kept it to or under my WW points. The weekends are hard for me. So I want to keep myself very busy. So much for short and sweet. :)

p.s. I joined Fitness19 today and worked out tonight with YM and PM, it was just what I needed after my topsy turvy day. 

I heart my family

Yo adoro mi familia. From the oldest to the youngest.. have really helped motivate me and keep me on track with my health journey. I got my butt kicked tonight. I had a ho hum day but Yvonne called and we decided to meet to work out tonight alongside her daughter, Prissy. They really pushed me and inspired me to work out hard tonight. The kids that my siblings have made are amazing. They are honest to goodness good people and I am so honored to be a part of their lives. 

Prissy really stepped it up and became my "trainer" tonight. She walked me through different exercises that she is grilled on at PE. I huffed and puffed but she got me through it. It hit me at that moment tonight how even the youngest members of my family can help, if I just ask.  It's not that I just discovered I was fat but becoming comfortable to talk openly with my family about our gordura and specifically about mine has really lit a fire in all of us. 

Today I let my no weight loss get to me. I know I shouldn't have focused on it but I could not help it. I stayed within in my WW points and I met with my new trainer to evaluate me for the upcoming Bootcamp I'm starting on Monday. Although I was doing something incredible for myself I could not help but feel so defeated when I walked into the door and meet Frances.  And went through my workout and health (or lack there of) history. So tonight really helped flip that around. This journey is not going to be easy but I know each day will bring me closer to the life I really am meant to live. Sometimes it feels like I have to battle each hour but it so damn good to know I have a support system behind me that will love and guide me through my ho hum and dark days. :) 

The Tortoise Go Lucky

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I stayed the same this week, and I'm okay with it. I have been walking a lot and eating right but I think too much of a change in my diet has made my system feel very bloated. My brother let me borrow his Vitamix and I love using it. I have been making green smoothies galore and also cooking at home more again with a lot of veggies. I just need to keep on trucking and know that some weeks I'll see it on the scale and other times I won't. But overall I feel really good. I went for an hour walk this morning before my WW meeting. Corona has small hills every where so I even when I walk around the neighborhood I definitely feel the burn. Tomorrow I have my evaluation with my new trainer. I'll be starting a Boot Camp next week. I think it will be a great jump start. Wish me luck!

Daily Affirmation: I am so proud of my small accomplishments this week and I love the healthy woman I am becoming. 

Ho Hum

Today was an unfocused day. It was a series of spurts I needed to get done. I think I made the mistake of waiting to long to eat my lunch. It was healthy but I could have cut back. My dinner was Chinese take out, and yes I did not order what I would have loved to order (bbq pork and orange chicken) but I could have had a lighter dinner. Today I was just over my points by 1.5. This week I really want to stay within my point range. I need to stay focused everyday and not let myself get into the self-distraction/destruction mind set. I also did not get my activity in. So I really need to push myself tomorrow.

I spoke to my dad this afternoon and the reason why I need to do this for myself became so clear. Sometime I want to block it out, but my family medical history is very ugly and I really need to wake up and see the reality.  I think it would break my dad's  heart if I developed the same medical problems he has been battling all these years.  I also really need to step up and support him in his loss as well. Wake up, Elvia! 

Walking the Talking

I lost 3.2 this week. I just need to have confidence of the work that I am doing between WW meetings. I am very happy but I know some weeks are not going to reflect that much weight loss. I just need to keep working the program with all the tools. I texted my family because we all need to work on our health and support one another. We did it before, right before my wedding. We had a family version of the biggest loser. My husband and I lost but not that much. I have the time and energy now to focus on myself. Before I add any little ones to the picture, I really want to work on myself and the areas in my life that I have been ignoring.

Daily Affirmation:
I rocked. I am proud of this week's success and that I pushed myself. I need to go further. I am proud that I went walking to my WW Monday morning meeting when our car was having trouble to start. I need to keep that attitude. When hurdles comes up, tackle it straight on and come up with other options. love- el

Weigh In Worries

Tomorrow morning I will wake up do the usual morning ritual, looking for clothes light as a feather in order to not get those extra ounces on the WW scale. I have been on and off WW for over 4 or 5 years maybe more and have been up and down the damn scale. I have left and came back. I started up again last April when other co-workers were also joining. A year later I was at the same weight. 

Since visiting my OBGYN again over a year ago and being told that I must lose 80+ pounds before he could help me conceive, I am still here. I am still here when I have a father with severe diabetes and a grand father with clogged arteries. A grandmother who passed away to young from the same diseases. I have aches and pains. I don't like the way I feel emotionally or physically. So why I am still here in the very high 300s. Why am I playing with life and those around me. 

A few things finally got me moving to the right direction again. The biggest slap in the face was my 5 year old nephew Robby, who on a normal night just hanging out in the yard turned and looked at me and said, "Why don't you want to have a baby?" Not why don't you have one. In just a few seconds my little nephew got me, GOT ME GOOD. A good dose of what the hell are you doing and if a child is what you really want than why are you headed in the wrong direction. 

I am not a little girl anymore, I am a woman. I have been through a lot of hurdles and pain in life but luckily I have had more joy and love. But the kicker is how am I loving me? How am I appreciating my life that God has given me? How do nourish? How often do I embrace myself in all the support, kindness, and love I show others. Not very much, and it needs to stop. 

I maybe chubby, you can even call me fat to my face because that is my reality. But I am lucky in love and joy, I bring to my life everyday by opening my eyes and praising God for this new day. To live it out, OUT LOUD and in the NOW. As I used to proclaim in college all over on walls and to friends as a reminder. But again the messenger sometimes misses the message. But here I am on the eve of another weigh in, at my WW meetings. I should not enter it with fear but with the hunger of seeing my hard work and the awakening of new knowledge and how to better take care of my body completely. 

Daily Affirmation:

I am beautiful, from the roundness of my ass to my dark skin, to my beautiful almond eyes. I am a good person with rivers and valleys in my soul ready for my journey.